Hands That Shake Like Mad
Mood: Happy
We got our report cards this morning: I have to get a 100 this 9 weeks to get exempt from the Algebra II final. [har] Not gonna happen. The 2 I don't have to worry about are LMS & English. The others I have to get a 93, 94 or 96 to get exempt. The hardest will be Bible--I have to get a 93. Cripes.

I had the oral book critique today. Ugh. Not to mention the fact that I was shaking so badly that if I would've held my note cards instead of putting them on the podium, they would've been moving so spasticatedly that I wouldn't have been albe to focus. Speaking of note cards, after I totally butchered my 2 minute & some second presentation, she made me [us] go up to her desk & show her my note cards. 'You're not supposed to have the body of the paper on note cards' [we have to either memorize it or wing it & I honestly don't know which one I'm worst at] 'Really...' Notice I didn't lie & say 'Oh, I didn't know that!' She said she'll 'have to think about' the points she's gonna take off for that. All I can say in my sad defense is that the seniors have been doing that for years. Meh...I don't think I'll get too bad of a grade though.

I bought a Fun Dip at lunch, but didn't have time to eat it. It still sits in my purse.

I was so immensely happy that school was over this afternoon after our Spanish II test. It's one week from Jason's 24th bday: I have to go buy him a present tomorrow. :D There was a new guy at youth tonight--his name's Dakota & he just moved here. He's only about 5 months younger than I am, but I don't think he's my type but hopefull he'll enjoy our youth! Jason & I had fun making fun of Katie for looking at Dakota with googly eyes when he first came in. [har] He did remind me of TR's cousin Dalton thought. Poor boy didn't even know his zip code yet. I know how that is. Funny how I said on 3/7 that I wanted to go see Secret Window with Jason & Micah, because when I brought it up tonight, both of them said they wanted to see it. I told Jason [since he said 'I didn't think you were into scary movies'] that we should see it on Saturday, but Micah has to work. But we worked it out: on Sunday after church, after we tape for the Extreme Makeover thing, we 3 will go to the theater then later, go to small groups at church. Hurrah. So excited & happy. Then, starting the day after that is Spring Break. :D

Now I have to go cram for a Bible test tomorrow. Arg.
Song of the day: Meant To Live by Switchfoot
Couplet of the day: Just want this week to be over/I don't want a dog named Rover

March 09, 2004--Tuesday - 8:32 PM

Too Accurate Enneagram Book
Mood: Musical
Today's Micah's 17th bday! :) While Becca & I were headed to the office [I had to talk to Mrs. Jerri & she had to talk to our principal to make sure he knew that Blake was coming for a interview for the Jr/Sr Banquet] & we realized that SPencer, Justin & Jacob were walking behind us & they asked us if we wanted to help them sing Happy Birthday to Micah over the intercom. :D So we did then I asked Mrs. Jerri I she knew what I could get Jason for his bday since he won't tell me what he wants. I plan on getting him a Snickers or something & she said that he said that he really wanted books from 2 authors, but she couldn't quite remember who they were. I have an insider. :P

After 2nd period, Micah got his Crunch bar out of his pocket, then realized a while later that it was quite melted but as he told me in the hall 'I must consume it becfore next class'. [har]

So tired & hungry this morning because I didn't eat dinner last night. I bought 2 brownies in 1st period.

I borrowed one of Mr. P's enneagram personality types books. I started reading the types 4 & 5 sections & it amazes me how scarily accurate it all is. I was telling him that if I didn't have a specific section [like integration habits] in type 4, type 5 would be correct. Freaky. I regularly come off like an 'oddball' with a 'quirky & whimsical sense of humor' to others, according to the book. [har]

After school, Micah, Becca & I headed over to where Blake was parked...he called me April. Arg. Why can't the boy know my name?! Micah was glad to finally meet him. :P

Came home...cleaned...wrote my oral book critique on note cards...taught myself how to play I Know A Song That Gets On Everybody's Nerves on Mac. My left thumb is still blood red. I planned on painting my nails dark green this afternoon, but I had to vacuum, put up a load of clothes, empty out the dishwasher, which would've allowed me time, but I decided to subconsciously put off memorizing my critique by redoing my bulletin board. :P Now I must shower then memorize it...ugh.
Song of the day: Somwhere Across Forever by Stellastarr*
Couplet of the day: I hate memorizing reports for school/Talking in front of the class isn't cool

March 08, 2004--Monday - 11:14 PM

Spritual Conference Spring 2004
Mood: Exhausted
I've been so tired that I can't even seem to get enough sleep to cover it. *yawn*

Today was our 7th-12th Spiritual Conference. This morning, April, Becca, Amber & I were discussing last year's & how April wasn't there because she was sick & Becca & I weren't really friend-friends...so it was just me & Amber. :P Then I had to go off & practice for the drama we were gonna do. Then we find out no, yall aren't dong your thing after the first session like we told you--you're doing it now! So, we all get up on stage & we have a new addition: signs of paper [to show our problem in the drama] tied with yarn around our necks that we're supposed to turn from behind us & slide them to be in front of us. Yeah...I'm the one special enough to screw that up & ended up ripping my paper, then Micah had to help me pull my sign that said 'melancoly' [right before we went on, I was showing Becca my sign & said 'I am melancoly' but it came out all East Indian & funky :D] around while I held it like a spaz. It didn't change the impact of the drama though--which is always good when you have Nicole on the team to alter things with her specialness. [har]

The speaker was sick & kept getting dizzy & trippy from the medicine he had taken. Quite amusing. He did a lot more visual illustrations this year than last year, so the first things we get are these little keychain tools to represent what we need in life to help us spiritually--I got a working wrench that's a little less than 2 inches tall. Then we got glow-in-the-dark bugs to show us that we shouldn't bug people...or something...I kinda zoned out because I was super-hungry--I got a scorpion. My immediate response: put the scorpion in the wrench clasp-y thing. Hurrah. Later on I found something on the floor that resembled an unwound paper clip, so what do I do--poke it through the scorpion. I'm truly a different type of person... [har] Oh & I had no idea until today that to get glow-in-the-dark things to glow, you have to put them on a flashlight or something for a while first. Good to know.

We praise team people had to sing about 4 times & we had to get really close together because of the not-too-sensitive microphones. At one point in 2 of the times, Becca accidently poked me in the stomach. I was holding the mike with my left hand & she was to my right & when she moved back-&-forth, she poked me. We bust out laughing silently, therefore making our alto harmony on [thankfully 1 of the 2 times was a silly song!!!] the song pretty weak & funny-sounding. :P

Lunch was welcomed greatly.

Good 2nd & 3rd sessions. :) During the 2nd, I started tapping the drum part of I Want To Hold Your Hand [The Beatles] for no apparent reason. Went to Target at 3pm to get a bow & a Crunch bar for Micah's present. :)

Dang--I watched The Shining tonight. Talk about one trippy horror flick. I've been a total scary-movie-freak lately & I loved it. If only I fully understood it. It's like part of it was left out, therefore I couldn't understand...kinda how I feel about math on the PSATs & stuff like that. :P

Then I slept for about 2 hours & I'm still extremely sleep-deprived. Now I must go to bed.
Song of the day: I'm On My Way by The Proclaimers
Couplet of the day: I like these spiritual conference things/Last year, I don't think that it was in the spring

March 07, 2004--Sunday - 7:49 PM

Blankly Staring At The TV
Mood: Too Tired To Sleep
So tired. I got to church a wee bit later than usual. Rebecca told me that the cookie dough I ordered from her a while back was in the freezer. Micah was at work this morning & Jason said that he had called yesterday because he & Jason were going to go see Hidalgo as a spur-of-the-moment thing & they wanted me to go. Hmm. He said the movie was ok & I told him that I'm [thankfully!!!--deserves 3 exclamation points] off next Saturday...I was thinking this afternoon that we 3 should go see Secret Window with Johnny Depp since it comes out the day before. I'll suggest that on Wednesday. In the movie, he wears glasses... :D I'll never know exactly I find that extremely attractive. [har] Ah! Speaking of glasses, tonight there was a 3 hour Mythbusters marathon, but all 3 episodes weren't containing the 2 I haven't seen.

After we returned home from church & shopping, my parents went to Wal*Mart as I lay on the couch, way too tired. I realized at 3:20pm, about a hour after they left that I was alone...& staring at the TV, not really watching VH1. Freaky. I feel sooo...ugh...& my eyes look totally drugged, but I do believe they always look like that, according to everyone. [har] I perpetually think that Mrs. G thinks I'm on drugs, I'm just waiting for the day someone will require me to take a drug test & that day will just so happen to be the day I ate poppy seed bread for breakfast. Yeah--random thought there.

I was channel surfing & came across the beginning of The Game with Michael Douglas. One word--dang. That movie sure was a trip. Awesome.

Right now, I'm going through the random CDs I got from the library on Friday. Right now, I'm listening to Miracle Of Science [Marshall Crenshaw] which was released in 1996. I finally got it because of the trippy black-&-white cover. I love every single song but one, which is an instrumental theme song to something. Shows what you get for admiring the cover of CDs. :P

I'm so glad tomorrow is the Spiritual Conference--therefore we have no regular school. We Drama-ers are doing a thing we've been working on for forever. :) Excited to be the emo kid.

Ah crap. I just read Nat's diary entry from Friday: her beloved & insanely cute dog Micah died. He got hit by a car & died in her arms. I hate that everything seems to be going wrong for her. Honestly, if you asked me the question if I think she's gonna do something bad to herself, I could honestly answer 'I really don't know'...it's that bad. Yes, I know it was her dog, she was very attached, but she's definitely on the edge, one of God's creatures, yes...should be compared with the life of a human, no. She said she would have willingly put herself underneath the car instead of him, as well as for her family & some friends...that she began to name off...myself not listed. That surely means alot. Yeah. I don't know her anymore. She seems to hold a facade that disconnects herself to the world...even more than I do. I know she doesn't really hold me as her best friend anymore, but why so suddenly. I've been gone from there for a long time, but we talked on the phone & kept in touch & sent bday/Christmas presents, but why does this all stop. I just remembered, a long while back, she said her brother was manic depressive...seems like she is too. This is a person I grew up with, well physically from when I was 10-13. Sorry if you're getting bummed, I hate entries like that. But, yknow, sometimes I just gotta let stuff out & this is one of those times.

Let's see...something cheery. Something happy. I'm downloading...borrowing semi-legally...the song I'm On My Way [The Proclaimers] from Shrek. *sings* [can't do it in a funny Irish accent like The Proclaimers, but I'll try] I'm on my way...uh huh...uh huh...uh huh...uh huh....I'll my best to do the best I caaaahn [can]...
Song of the day: Seven Miles An Hour by Marshall Crenshaw
Couplet of the day: I want to go see the flick with 'my guys'/Johnny'll be wearing specs on his eyes

March 06, 2004--Saturday - 11:34 PM

Procrastinated Book Critique
Mood: Tired
Arg--I hate it when Mr. Randy's sometimes-scary cat Madeline is standing right at the door the second I come out of the pitch-black bathroom. :P You'd think I'd be used to that by now. So yeah, as of right now, I'm on Mr. Randy's Sony Vaio because I babysat Allie, Hannah & Lydia today & now I'm on the comp. Indeed.

Quite an uneventful but able-to-get-on-babysitter-Nicole's-nerves kinda day. We watched Finding Nemo then School Of Rock! I'm so glad I finally got to see it. I see quite a bit of Jason in Jack Black's character [?: maybe more like the actual Jack Black] Dewey Finn. :D Roadrunner by Jonathan Richman & The Modern Lovers was in it--as soon as I heard it, I go 'YEAH! Jonathan Richman!...*sings* roadrunner roadrunner...' [har] Scared the children.

We went outside for a while but within 2 minutes of my standing in the sun, I felt myself begin to sunburn. Ah yes, insert any nerd/pale joke. :) I happily sat on a canvas chair in the garage while the neighbor across the street came & dumped his kid off. Well, perhaps it wasn't truly like that, but how would you take the conversation 'Christopher, would you like to play with the girls while Daddy loads up the truck? Cmon, go play...*looks at me for a sec* You don't mind, do you?' Meh. Odd child, about 3, speaks in like 3 different languages, including French, but rarely made any form of verbal communication.

Once we got back in, my dad called & told me that around 10am [he had just come back from work at 2pm] Micah called from his cell phone. So I called him back to see if everything is ok. Of course, his voicemail picks up & didn't even sound like him. I began to leave a message as I was preparing an orange for Hannah. My voice sounded all icky when I said 'hey Micah' because I forget to clear my throat. I then started laughing & told him that I was just calling back to make sure everything was ok & that if it was dire, he could call my house back since my dad was there & I was here...& so on. I wonder what it was.

After the girls went to bed, I started on my oral book critique on Thr3e. Well...I got on the comp, made the title page, then got distracted & clicked on Internet Explorer, tagged my board, then began typing again. It's like I go into a sort of trance when I start typing some paper. I lose contact with what's around me & just type. Then after I'm done, I come back & read something that is just bunches of 'too formal' [all of my work in Writing class, according to Mrs. B as well as my friends :P] writing but I don't care. That's the way I choose to write. I catch myself doing that in everyday things too, such as this diary. It may sound a bit uppity, but this is just the way I talk & type. Indeed. :D It really irritates me how Mr. Randy's printer hates me & therefore fades out at the bottom of each page printed. I had to go over the bottom half of the first page with a fine-tip pen. It turned out looking like really cool font, but it's just my inability to write neatly. [har] I'll have to copy it all down to notecards before Wednesday, but I'll put that off as long as I can. Tomorrow I think I might attempt to try to reprint it on the church office computer. :D Hurray. Well, my parents are about to come pick me up. So long. BTW, Amber got her Jr/Sr dress today! April's the only one left... :)
Song of the day: So Long, Frank Lloyd Wright by Simon & Garfunkel
Couplet of the day: I did fall asleep twice during Spongebob Squarepants today/Awoke 30 seconds later then for longer, I lay